Not a Belle & Sebastian song that I have much appreciation for – a bit melodramatic…and we know how I soo do not enjoy the melodramatic. What a word. How can it be mellow AND dramatic? Hmph!
I signed papers today so I can finally say something about what is going on…Not that I need to say a lot. But I can say a little.
Soon to be ex and I signed temporary orders today. Negotiated I might add. It was tough, but we kept it out of court. For now. And tonight, it really hit me. How bloody sad it is. As a huge anthropology student (my favorite subject – if only it was an acceptable major) I know that long term marriage/monogamy is not the norm – worldwide. Or rather. There are a lot of other options. That the world is not full of mommies and daddies and one job and a house. If only the world were so lucky. Maybe. But that doesn’t take the sting out. And I wonder how much of a role society – the omniscent ever evil society ha – played into everything. How much of what we do and how we act is dictated by what we really feel? or by what we think we should feel…? Or by what our friends think we should feel? Are we really responding to the person across from us? Or the people that we stacked up and put behind them?
And on that note….look for a sale tomorrow or this weekend…Someone has to pay the attorney 🙂