I am a Space Invader…..
Today was/is a very sad day. So unfocused. Unable to think of anything but you. I was at Taco Bell with Shannon & MacKenzie and Hayley, refueling after shopping for anime convention costume garb. And I started babbling. Not really babbling, half babbling but I just wanted to say “MY BEST FRIEND IS DEAD AND IT IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR”.
And then “Hey There Delilah” came on the radio and I swear, but not on my sanity – which is questionable – I told Chani yesterday that you control the music in my head….Like everywhere I go, the radio, it pops on these songs…and you are talking to me through them and today…
Argh…Before “Hey There Delilah” there was that terrible “After All” song by Peter Cetera from the movie “Chances Are” – a movie about REINCARNATION….Sigh.
I am truly going off the deep end. You are dead. I miss you. You are probably not playing the radio Just for Me and I need to find more friends. I also need to get out of the house so that I can meet people and perhaps even, gasp, date. I should seriously consider church on a regular basis to scare the psychic longings right outta me…That or go watch some scary spook movie.
Memorial. April 5th, 2008. 6pm. Highway 30 Eats. La Grande.
I’m wearing the Betsey Johnson you bought me. Afterwards I’m going to the Longbranch to play Blur and Pulp on the Internet Jukebox and suck down a kamikaze. Only you won’t be there to tell them to make it weak and with lots of tonic water. You were that kinda good to me.
I miss you.